Still Waiting

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i'm feeling kind of lost now.. and i'm too confused to find out what's really bothering me.

PMS-ing a lot these few days, i wonder if it's really because of my period. but i do know its something much more than that.

i'm now searching for an identity for myself. who am i going to be? i know it's good to think more, but now that i'm thinking too much, i'm just creating problems to solve.

i know i want to be a good person, well liked by people and likes people, because i bring out the best in them.

but how do i go about doing it? how do i be nice to everyone without offending someone else, yet remain respectable? now it seems so hard to just be nice.

i guess i'm a goofy person, joking around, making jokes and making the atmosphere less tense. but i'm sometimes labelled as an unserious person. but i am a serious person, if you ask me for a solution to a problem that is bothering you a lot, i will make sure i become down to earth and provide you with the best answer i can.

i'm a person who doesnt like to make situations seriously awkward. a little embarrassing maybe, but it'll be funny at least to some. and so i sort of "please" people. since i try to make them feel good about themselves, cos i don't see why some people should place themselves higher than others(altho i'm sometimes guilty of it, i try not to). and now im seen as eager to please people. so should i please the commenter by being uneager to please people? ironic right?

sigh. that's why i feel as if i've lost my identity, YET again.

-when are you coming back? ;